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Alive in LA

by Nightjars

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Posters on your walls Crosswalks, outlet malls Walk fast, you’re too tall I wonder, then not at all Oh no, no, no, no Don’t see it in me Oh, no, no, no no, I’m Still buried down in Hansentown I would rather die Than have the one I want look into my eyes And tell me I’m a girl they like I bet the other girls think this all the time Oh no, no, no, no Don’t see it in me Oh, no, no, no no, I’m So smart and I'm so sweet Oh no, no, no, no Don’t see it in me But if you’re down, I’m down, I’m Undead around in Hansentown I'm so smart and I'm so sweet! I'm so smart and I'm so sweet! I'm so smart and I'm so sweet! I'm so smart and I'm so sweet! I’m so sweet I’m so sweet I’m so sweet I’m so sweet
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Pearl (live) 02:52
I love the summer, but I’m not a fool I know it means that the end is soon The sun’s sodden iris arise in the bay I’ll see that forest on fire someday He makes a lot of money but He knows a secret about the body: that It can melt whenever it wants to Take a new form without even asking you He’s been reading a book on the tide It’ll be at our doorstep in 20 years’ time Laughing at dinner, too high for this shit Does anyone remember that movie we liked as kids? In his eyes, a hallway spiraling One year the string of the summer will break And the moon will get higher and higher Pulling our roof through the quilt of the waves To bury us with our desires I’m a fruit! Look at me! Fallen from the ruined tree Twisting his wrist while I’m cutting apples Staring knives into the sea If I could As if I would His only son turns to mouth at me: Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good? Are you good?
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Your kitchen has a ghost in it Who cannot say goodbye I burn holes in things I look at I don’t look you in the eye While radios in windows Sing “Baby don’t you cry” Your silence tightening Like ball lightning In a dream I cleaned the blisters On your palms and held your head Stigmata come from nowhere  but the flaming house you fled Now I’m surrounded by your looking And the books that you have said You found enlightening You are ball lightning, oh Suspended right beside me in the air When I finally speak, you’re no longer there Hey, I’m stupid, but I’m honest: Friends and enemies, beware! The lesson in my wound  is that it kind of hurts to care Cards and coins will tell us  of a world where we’re not scared Where we’re frightening Like ball lightning Ball lightning Ball lightning
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Skin so new and smooth thanks to Triple blades my baby got me Take a bunch of photos Look like both my parents equally Looking into mirrors that Make me look a young man Rainbow halo ‘round the Sun is like an omen Makes me want to cry All the life I locked up All the boys I liked the Thought of being more of But joy is not a treat Paid for with good behavior My beloved rituals are not my savior Everything I told that doctor was a fiction My body’s not a boy for Me to have a crush on All that said, this is the First time that I’ve felt calm
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Black tree weather Head down the whole way home My fingers numb from Carving out the stone I saw a werewolf in the Surface of the lake Transformation Paused halfway It’s true that all labor is the same Like water down the drain And who cares? That’s what a fool believes: That if you do not look straight at it, It will take your soul, but spare your body Yes, I swear it! I went to bed a human man Woke up in the morning a human man again But It’s true, I was as a dragon in my youth Defending hordes for which I had no earthly use That’s why I don’t play to win But you and I aren’t different And who cares? That’s what a fool believes: That it’ll all be worth the hours If you stay till six fifteen And who cares, who cares? We stand beneath the selfsame ruse Counting down the rainy evenings Till we find some earthly use, some earthly use

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Recorded live at Junior High Los Angeles on 17 July 2022 by Jeff Cohen

Special thanks to Jeff Cohen, Eden Hain & Jr Hi, and Jess Kallen & Bella Porter

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released October 7, 2022

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Nightjars Vancouver, British Columbia

Nightjars is the solo project of queer and trans singer-songwriter Adrian Matias Bell. His first album, Modjeska, is a collection of songs written in and about his childhood home of Orange County. Carrying echoes of 70s singer-songwriter craft, Modjeska explores a California coming-of-age with gravity and warmth. ... more

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